A dash of Pepper…

…with a splash of Mint

Birthdays and growing up

Posted by Pepper on April 22, 2021

A few days ago, I turned 35. As a birthday gift, I got the first dose of the covid vaccination. Mint and I had an early morning appointment. The kids were still in school. So after our shot, we headed out for a child free brunch. And as I gorged on my skillet cooked potatoes, whipped butter with rye bread, salsa laced eggs, I kept trying to mentally asses my feelings about my new age. And then I pushed those thoughts aside.

I had no plans of having a cake, because the sugar high doesn’t excite me these days. However, Cotton and Candy were aghast that I was actually considering getting through a birthday with no cake. So for their sake, we got a tiny red-velvet bundt cake, which we let them cut anyway. In the evening, we went to the mall. This was the first time in over a year that we were entering a closed, indoor space. Just walking in that space made me feel happy. We were reclaiming our lives.

We ended the day by picking up dinner from of one of my favorite Burmese restaurants. I was so happy to be home, change into my PJs and put my legs up on the couch as I ate. Now is when I tried to evaluate my feelings. Did I feel any kind of remorse about my new age? Nope. Zilch.

I remember making a big deal about turning 25. In this post, I keep talking about how I can’t believe I am so old. LOL! Seriously, at one time I thought 25 was really old. I am so glad I have these sentiments recorded on my blog. They help me take stock and recognize how I have evolved.

A decade later, my perspectives have truly changed. I am grateful and content. There is very little room in life to agonize over how old you are. I am still not sure about what is expected of me at this age and how smart, successful and wise a 35 year old is supposed to be. But I care a damn about the expectation now. 35 and stupid is acceptable to me.

As I type this post, I am thinking of all the grief my country is going through. India is in terrible shape and the news all around has been so grim and depressing. I am trying to keep my anxiety in check and praying for all the families who are going through such trying times. It’s eye opening and helps you regain perspective, in case you seem to be losing it. The state of affairs at present is a constant reminder of what matters in the end and what doesn’t.

And today, I am so eternally grateful to have all that matters.

10 Responses to “Birthdays and growing up”

  1. Keith said

    Pepper, happy birthday and great news about the vaccine. I am awaiting my second does as well. Thirty-five is a good age, in my view. I like it so much I am celebrating my twenty-seventh anniversary of my 35th birthday this year. Seriously, best wishes. Laugh more, suffer fools less and every day forward will be better. Keith

  2. Visha said

    Belated birthday wishes Pepper. I love your thoughts in todays post. Resonates so much with mine. Contentment is the true measure of happiness.

  3. Happy Birthday, Pepper! 🍾πŸ₯‚πŸ’

  4. Preethi said

    Belated birthday wishes Pepper !
    We should all pray for our friends and family back in India. The situation is quite depressing and I hope it gets better soon.

  5. Hanan said

    Dear Pepper,

    So glad to see your post! I was making a silent prayer while opening up your blog, ‘please let there be a new post’. Sooo glad to read about how you feel! Belated Happy Birthday!

    With all the distressing news around, it truly feels joyful to see that atleast somebody is able to return back to the old days wala normal πŸ™‚

    Take care & Much love

    • Pepper said

      Oh Hanan! Thank you. Your comment made my day.

      And yes, thankfully things are pretty stable here with everything opening up and majority of the population being vaccinated. It almost makes me feel guilty to be doing ‘normal’ things when things are so bad back home.

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