Dear Mint,
A few days ago, we completed 3 years of married life. I didn’t get a chance to put this post up on the right date, because we were just so busy! Running around on campus, saying our goodbyes to your classmates, packing up and putting the remnants of your student life in boxes, using the last few moments on campus to socialise, gearing up for your graduation ceremony, running on the station platform, lugging overstuffed, giant sized bags in order to make it to the train, it was all such a blur.
We were actually in the train on the eve of our wedding anniversary, and when the clock struck 12, I glanced at you. You were lying on the opposite berth, exhausted. I looked at you for a few moments as the train chugged ahead. The moment seemed symbolic. We were moving forward. We were in transit. That moment perfectly represents our life right now. Don’t you think? We are moving towards a new job, a new life, and many changes.
Do you remember the time, long before we were married, when you told me you wanted to do your MBA? Do you remember how disturbed I was by the idea? I knew how demanding the top school MBA programs were. I didn’t want to be competing for your time, not with your classes, books, assignments and a bursting schedule. So you decided to push your MBA. You said you would do it after we got married.
When we did get married, it was time for you to go to school. But I threw a fit again. We were newly married, I didn’t want to share you with anybody or anything, not this soon. I wanted to have fun with you. So you let go of your admits and decided to defer your MBA for me. Again.
At the back of my mind, I always felt guilty. Was I depriving you of something you wanted for my own selfish needs? Perhaps. Throughout our married life, that thought kept nagging me every now and then. So when you donned your graduation robe and walked to the stage to collect your MBA degree, I felt not only a surge of pride, I also felt like I had attained closure. Something that had remained incomplete, how now been completed. Your MBA was done. And I felt happy, proud and fulfilled.
The past year was all about your MBA, and learning to survive the distance. If there was one thing I learnt, it was to value you. Did you notice, we barely argued through out the year. Each time we met, we mostly smiled, hugged and cuddled. So when I am overcome by the desire to smack you, when I see you glued to the TV, or playing temple run for the nth time, or when I want to kick your ass for staring at the laptop screen when I am talking to you, I will remind myself of the times when I was willing to overlook all of this, just to be able to spend a few moments with you by my side.
The other day, we happened to be shopping for me at Lifestyle. I spotted an offer – buy 3 tees for the price of 2. Not being the kind to let go of a deal, you encouraged me to buy 3 tees. I tried to fish out 3 ‘Small’ sized tees from the basket. Since I am too lazy and uncaring, I conveniently picked up the the tees that were lying at the top. Who wanted to rummage through the entire pile? But you wanted me to have the best of the lot. So you asked me to step aside, and you continued to search for and pull out the small sized tees from the bottom, painstakingly evaluating and shortlisting them for me.
A few moments later, I found a woman asking you if you had a particular tee in a larger size. I was a little miffed. Does he look like a salesman? And then when I looked around, I realised why she would have mistaken you for one. You were the only guy, standing amidst a hundred women around a basket that said ‘Sale’, in the women’s clothing section. Now you don’t go around seeing too many guys carefully examining and holding a bunch of women’s tees, do you?
I asked you later, if the incident bothered you. Didn’t it trouble you? Standing in the midst of women, doing a ‘woman’s job’, and being mistaken for a salesman? “Who cares? As long as you got some good tees”, you said. And that is why I think you are awesome. The fact that you never seem to care about what the world thinks or says. The fact that you fight for the best for me, even when I am too lazy to do it for myself. The fact that you never ever expect me to cook or clean just because you are a man and I am your wife adds to it. I see you fighting the battles of feminism with other men, and I feel proud of you.
I am putting up a picture of ours that I think truly depicts and sums up our relationship.
That is us. Carefree, holding on to each other, dancing in the middle of the night, on the streets of Amsterdam, with no inhibitions. May we sail through life, just like that.
Lots of love,
— Pepper